A large unfairness that I find with starting a blog is that so much seems one sided. I get to expel my beliefs, writing, and reviews all over you like the annoying kid in class who only has the one joke. You just get to sit there listening to it wondering what your life has become. Lets hope its not that bad of a blog, but I do hope that you will leave a comment letingt me know what you think. If you are nice then that just makes it a more positive experience for the both of us (especially if we disagree with each other).
Overall I think that I am a failure at life, and what I wanted out of life. This isn’t some sort of emo rant where I spill my nihilistic values all over the web. I am just being honest with myself, and understanding that if I want to improve I have to accept that I failed in many things (most things). Focusing on the positive first I did a couple of things right: I married the love of my life, and I learned how to play dungeons and dragons. Other than that there isn’t really a whole lot I have to be proud of, and in comparison to now I wonder how I honestly managed to get either of those right. I’ve become overweight, I am in debt, I have to idea how to get better work, and I don’t know what it means to live a good life.
When I work with clients I often ask them what they want out of their expereince, what are their goals, and do they have plans to accomplish them? I never took the time to answer these questions for myself. I don’t know who I am really…and that is a strange thing to say. I mean we all know who we are as in what we look like, and how we feel around situations. I just don’t know who I am. I don’t see myself fitting into a situation, and I feel more like a ship on a sea of desperation to find what life all means for me.
So that is why I am writing. It’s self-discovery, and a chance to improve. It’s a way to hold myself accountable to my goals, and one day live a better life. I will be writing my opinion on things, creating fiction, and blogging about my personal life. I’m going to get it all out there to hopefully make a change, and get somewhere close to where I want to be.
What do I want out of this blog?
To grow into the mistakes I have made overcoming the setbacks, and setting up a foundation to build off of.
What are my goals of this blog?
To write fictions, reviews, personal tales, and opinions in an effort to understand myself.
How do I plan to accomplish this?
Write when I can. Post something at least three times a week, take pictures, understand the blogging community.